Piece of My Life

28 years I'm walking on this earth. It's a long time indeed, but still I have a lot question about live and life itself. It seems that the world is turning too fast right now. And today I'm thinking about my life, what had I done with it. Remembering the stories full of laughter and sorrow, and comparing my life with others. When I look to people who're younger than me, I come to a conclusion that some how I wasted too much time. I feel that my life is not moving at all, steady like a tree. Is it a good one? I don't know. Some people like this but me? I just don't feel anything at all. One thing is sure that some how I often feel bored. Bored of everything I see... What is wrong with me? Truly, for the last 4 years I'm trying to find the right answer, but till now I couldn't find any. My sight is blurred and my vision is blocked. I really want to rest, to stop for a while, to catch back what I left behind, to search something which I lost. But I'm afraid that if I stop, I will stop forever, since life is always move forward. One of my biggest regret is I cannot make my parents smile for me. I know it is cliche, but it is important to me. Some how I cannot fulfilled thier hope and dreams. I'm realy sorry Mom, Pa, I beg for your forgiveness...