Sunday, September 05, 2004
Why?
Many days have pass by, creating distance between us. Eventhough we weren't really close but at that time you were my closest friend. A place where I shared my joy and laughter, so I can for get my tears.
I still remember how your clear eyes looked me with questions, trying to understand the world I lived in. You asked me such simple question, ...why? My answer was really absurd. A set of unclear words from my mouth, trying to deceived you in confusion, because I didn't trust you. so I did lied to you and I lied to my self. But then you keep listening to my words. I really didn't know if you really trust me or not, if you really believed in what I said. But you were listening to me, and it really surprised me.
I suprised that someone actually hear me. There was someone listening to worthless story of one person living in this world. We talked almost everything everyday, eventhough it something silly, something funny and something sad, until that day.
Until the day we had to part away and go on our own way. And It really surprised me that I feel sad, unsecure and anger about those things. It wasn't like me at all. I know my self, an ignorant, careless and plain person who never think about anyone else. But I felt those feelings. I asked myself, why? and something cross my mind. It was you.
