Piece of My Life

God is really trying to mock me around, cause he kept sending me message like the first message frim Him I learned, through death of people around me. Yup, He is the one who know me inside out when I even don't recognize who I really am. Sometimes I even wonder whether I have to thanked Him or cursed Him for troubles He was gotten me into. But somehow when I realized I'm that I learned a greater good from those event I thank Him and feel glad that I'm still thinking this way.

But today I learned His messages through other means. When I saw my tiny 2 months old cousin and got a chance to teasing him around I feel something different. I don't know was it call as paternal instinct or not, but he was the first babies who yawning every time I play with. Well mostly children and babies were scared with me with I don't know what reason. So when it happens I just felt strange...

After that event everything flashes back in my head, from the death message or another kind of message which probably I missed. Ugh... really it suck (in a good way...) for someway, everytime I think of it, I often felt God really see my life as a sitcom series with He (offcourse...) as its director. Is my life a curse? :P